i need my idgaf attitude back.

For reals.

I really use to not care what people think about me, inside and out. I didn’t let it get to me.  But now I feel all vulnerable, and…open.  I have no idea how that happened, but it just seems like the things that never would have bothered me before now do.  All these insults I’ve heard before.  Fat, ugly, stupid, etc. I’ve heard it all, but for some reason they keep playing in my head lately and it’s driving me crazy.

And pointless things hurt me too, like telling me to shut up or calling me names.  What’s wrong with me? These things have never got to me before and now it’s just like they’ve all just fallen on me at once and I can’t take it.  And I feel on the verge of crying all the time.

But honestly, I need my I don’t care what people think attitude back, because this is driving me insane. And I don’t mean to be a bitch about it, but when those things just bubble up, I slightly explode.

But I’m sorry to whoever I’ve been a bitch to lately. I’ve just been sad I guess because the only three people I really want to see me graduate can’t be there and it kind of hurts, but I understand things happen.

Anyway, thanks for being here, Tumblr<3